Surgery week is upon us and as I think of these next few days and what lies ahead I feel a rush of emotions through my entire body (literally making me sick to my stomach). Steven and I have stayed strong through all of this, not only for us but for the kids and we continue to live our life as nothing is wrong and just go through our day to day motions.
The fact is though, behind this blank stare and these happy eyes is a girl who is scared shitless...
The fact is though, behind this blank stare and these happy eyes is a girl who is scared shitless...
I received a call from my Doctor on Monday. He wanted to inform me that he, along with my surgeon and a team of Specialists had a conference regarding my case on Easter Sunday. They had special slides of all of my biopsies that they viewed in detail and he wanted to inform me that there was more cancer cells than what they had originally thought.
After receiving this news on Monday, it all hit me and I came crashing down. Reality is setting in... My mom was on an airplane headed to be with us, Steven was at work unable to get to his phone, but thankfully my best friend answered her phone and sat there as an ear who listened to me weep.
I am scared, I am nervous, but through it all I am trying to stay strong.
So here it is...
I have Colon Cancer.
I go in this Friday, April 10th for Surgery at Miriam Hospital in Providence, RI.
They are estimating surgery to be around 4 1/2 hours long.
If all things go good I might be able to go home in 4-5 days.
They are estimating surgery to be around 4 1/2 hours long.
If all things go good I might be able to go home in 4-5 days.
They will be removing over 80% (fingers crossed that is all they will need to take) of my colon in hopes to get every single thing out of my body in one fell swoop.
Thank you to everyone who has continued to think about us and pray for me (and my family) as we trudge along through something so scary. I am ready for all of this to be behind me and to be on the road to recovery!
Praying so hard for you!!
ReplyDeleteLifting you up in prayer this week. You are strong and your God is stronger. ((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteOh Traci. I will be thinking of you this entire weekend and anxiously awaiting to hear how everything goes. Sounds like you have the best support system in place so just wanted to send additional hugs your way!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this news Traci, but I know you have an amazing team of doctors and will be in good hands. You have a lot of friends (old and new ;) ) who are thinking and praying for you. I'm blessed to be one of them! Prayers and good thoughts to you and your family through this difficult time!!
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh, girl. I will be praying so hard for you, Steven, Charli, Crew and your entire support system. I hope everything goes well and you leave a MUCH healthier lady. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteOh Traci I will be praying so hard for you this entire week. I am so sorry you have to go through this. Please update us on how everything goes. Hugs to you, you are one strong mama!!
ReplyDeleteI've thought of you several times and this post brings tears to my eyes. Will definitely be sending up some prayers in your behalf. You deserve all the happiness in the world. You are a beautiful woman inside and out.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking of you ever since you first discussed the surgery. I will be praying for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story - your strength knows no bounds.
ReplyDeleteSending you tons of love and prayers. You are such a strong woman. You without a doubt have got this.
ReplyDeleteSending you tons of love and prayers. You are such a strong woman. You without a doubt have got this.
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ReplyDeleteAlthough you don't know me, I saw that joseph posted a prayer for you on fb. I am a navy wife, also and in the medical field. I see that you have already been through physical difficulties. I pray along with J., your family and friends. I hope and pray that your surgery will be successful, that your medical team will be skilled, have wisdom, and treat you with tender care, that your recovery will be smooth sailing and speedy, that you will be surrounded with support, friends, family, love and hugs, that you will have the strength to fight the road to recovery. May God bless you, grant you peace, heal your body, comfort you and yours.
Nancy
Praying for you and your sweet family.
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